Wedding Wednesday: You don't know what you want till it's (possibly) gone

To save me boring you with a long, boring and convoluted tale (I save those for the people I actually communicate with in person), I will give you the details in dot point.

• I love peonies and wanted them for my bouquet. The wedding is in April. Peonies flower for about a nanosecond in October/November.

• Never fear said the florist. David Austin Roses look just like Peonies. 'Yay!' I thought.

• I read 247,982 wedding magazines, blogs, websites and news articles. 247,980 weddings featured David Austin Roses.

• I swore off David Austin Roses. Denounced them as overly popular.

• 5 weeks before the wedding I have zero concrete flower plans. There are a few things I like, but nothing decided.

However...

• Secretly, in the back of my mind, I have always had David Austin Roses as my back-up. Too beautiful to ignore.

• This past weekend I met a sweet florist who is doing the flowers for a friend. She is worried about the flowers the friend wants. I nodded knowingly "yes, I heard about the lisinathus". She laughs, "Oh, that is no problem, it's the David Austin Roses"

• When I am stressed I rush my words... "what do you mean? why? David Austin's are in season. Aren't they? Yes, my florist definitely said they were. Aren't they? What is the problem???????"

• Upshot of the story: The crazy weather Sydney has been experiencing (the temperature changes erratically from 40+ to 22 degrees, rain, storms, searing heat) has destroyed most flower farms. All the David Austin's for all the Autumn weddings... gone. There might be a few left, but they will probably be pricey.

• So, no back-up plan. Will have to go with my random other thoughts. I need to revert back to my wedding motto "don't get attached to any specific ideas". I just needed a moment to mourn.

Images: My wedding flower ideas, Martha Stewart,